holding on

i feel like i'm holding onto nothing at this point of my life. i got rid of so many people in my life that i do cherish dearly in my life all because he don't like them. no i have not one soul to talk to. i can't talk to him because he don't want to listen. he won't listen. so i will continue to keep on pretending that everything is okay. i will hide all my tears, my pain, my open wounds away from him so he can see what he wants. what is the truth when we can't even talk to one another? how does this work? where do we go from here? you wanted to hurt me, now you have. just know that because i won't say anything, i'm not blind, i do see things. i know things. things you don't think i know but i do. i am just so close to just letting it all go. you want to talk about you and what I've done. but have you considered to think about what you've don't to me? and what you have done to affect me? you have very poor choice of words. maybe it is time for us to go our separate ways? if i'm alone, i won't have anyone to hurt me anymore. i can just be haunted by the thoughts of you and us. where am i suppose to go? what am i suppose to do? who am i suppose to be to you. do you even love me anymore?