love

people comes and go.  how do you know when love is really there or not?  i mean, you find your frist love and they leave you scarred.  you met someone new and they give their world to you and yet you are still afraid to give your all and place your heart in the hands of another stranger, not knowing if they are going to rip it apart now or later or ever.  it's hard, but while i was having this conversation with my fatty last night, he said, "when you find that one person who you feel is true to you, the overwhelming feeling of them hurting you will no longer be there.  they only feeling you should feel is knowing that this time around, you'll get to be treated the way you deserved to be treated.  love will overcome all doubts."  now that was some deep fried snickers! 

how do you explain to someone that you love/like them?  you can't!  there is no explaination to why you fall for someone.  you just know deep inside, you really do.  i ask my fatty all the time why he loves me, i just love hearing his stupid reasons, and he always says, "seriously?  do you really have to ask?"  lol.  yes!!!!  of course!!!  i am a woman and i need to know!!!  haha!!!  no but seriously, if someone asked me why i love him, i couldn't say, i wouldn't know really where to start.  i just do.

now what do you do when you're already in love with someone and bam!  someone comes waltzing in and you want to spend every waking moment with them?  what kinda buttery popcorn balls did you just find yourself in?!  is that wrong?  or is it because the sparks are gone.  or is it because you have fallen outta love?  or is it because you just want to have a little fun?  whatever the case may be, you just find out the answer and soon!  judgement will not be made until the deed is done!!!  haha!!!  that sounded funny. 

dreams are what you make of them.  you might not know what they mean but they mean something.  i have strange dreams...what can i make of them?!!  but i keep having these dreams with the same people all the time...it's starting to worry me.  oh well, it'll all work out on it's own i suppose. 

and lawd it's the end of may and it's cold as ever!!!  blah!!!