it's been while since i've seen him or spoken to him. but as of lately, i've been dreaming about him. this morning i woke up to a dream where we found one another in the back of room filled with guns. he looked so skinny and happy. it made me smile. i found some food and as i turn around to hear the voices behind the door and wonder if my mom would see us, i see him returning from the door that leads to the outside. i asked him what he did and he said, "just locking the door so no one can come in here and find us. i don't want to not see you anymore. i missed you so much." and i said in reply, "you understand that because you locked that door, you should have locked that one over there. because that's the one that you need to lock. that's the one that everyone is at." he said, "it's okay, umm...the window. we can go through the window." i just laughed at him and said, "here eat some food. you gotten so skinny. eat!" his reply, "i've been losing weight and i'm almost at where i was when i first got out of prison." and i said, "starving yourself isn't good. so you better eat up." while he was eating i was looking into the lockers for the perfect gun. i was going to go shooting after all. he just so happened to show up where i was. i remember bitching softly under my breath about keng not throwing food away when it wasn't good anymore. lol. then i felt him behind me. his arms holding mine. i tensed. he let go and walked over to the window and seen people coming and opened the door. the people came back and the guy stared at him and it was as if he understood him. one quick movement, he grabbed his bag and a gun and said for me to take the gun i had in my hand. it was short and small. had a power button and it glowed blue when it was turned on. it kind of scared me. we left and walked along the river edge. suddenly he no longer looked like him...but that didn't matter. we came across some other people. warning us to keep going north and don't stop because the vampires were taking over the city. somehow, i knew he was a vampire. and i was sad. the lady who was doing all the talking walked right up to him and stared him down. i got so nervous because i was holding his hand, and if she found out that he was a vampire, then i would have to die as well. i saw something huge in the river. and i saw him look over at it. it opened it's mouth and i saw him open his. and then he pulled on my hand and we continued on the trail.
in a car with my siblings, with him driving. we were all going on vacation. i was so happy.everyone was happy. then we pulled over and everyone got out the the cars. i was yelling at no one in particular and realized everyone was out of the car. i walked out and crossed the street and i seen my brothers and sister in the middle of a lake setting up a game of baseball. i was so confused. my sister was putting the bases down and my nephew was running around doing the only things little boys do. i was scared to death. unsure of how to even get there. and i saw that it was deep and i didn't really know how to swim. i see lake seaweed thick along the drop. i was terrified. i looked at my sister in law who was by my side and she looked at me and said, " come on, girl, let's go. they ain't gonna wait for us or come and get us. we minus well just jump in and get it over with and get together with them!" i was beyond horrified. i didn't know what to do. i just held her hand and asked, "will you hold my hand? wait no, that's not smart. because if i drown, i'll be pulling you done with me. and i don't want to be held accountable for killing you by drowning." while i'm ranting off because i'm so scared, i watched as a couple of guys just jumped in and disappearing and then reappearing. all of a sudden i see her jumping and and i follow suit because i didn't want to be alone.
i was floating!!! yes i wasn't going to drown!!! and as i was floated i felt this force drawing me near the center of the lake where my family was. but i realized i had lost my necklace. i tried to go back and get it and the waves just pushed me towards the center. i gave up trying because i was scared i might drown. i swam to the corner where the trees met the lake shore and talked briefly with my sister and all of a sudden we ended up in the lake house. i really needed to pee. so did amy and maoshel. mykieu needed to shower. so we all entered the house looking scared. there were no light switches but turned on when we walked into rooms. mykieu took the first bathroom when i walked into it and realized it was only one room. then i realized, every door labeled as out was the bathroom. the pictures on the wall were kinda eerie and scary. just pictures of little girls. different ages, ethnicity weight and height. but they all wore the same dressed and posed the same way. i said to amy, "this is really scary and weird...wanna go into a bathroom with me?" she neverously said,"yes!" as she nodded at me and followed me into the bathroom.
and that's when i woke up. had it not been for my alarm, i would probably finished up the dream into something else. perhaps i really should stop reading before i go to sleep. lol
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