just the same

"you chase him and tell him that you're sorry even though it's not even your fault."

so what did you just do? you made me apologize for something i didn't even do, if not yet. i just woke up and you just started yelling. you asked what was wrong, i said nothing. why can't you just let that be just that. you say i attacked you. please. if i wanted to attack you i would have already. i just wanted to let it be where it was, yet you come back and texted me, unable to let it go. if it was something about you, i would have told you. i don't need you to badger me until i crack and it does involve you pissing me off.

every little thing that happens, you always use the fucken excuse, "if you don't think you can handle this," "if this isn't what you wanted," i think i understand where i'm suppose to go. you don't have to keep on saying these things. when you say these things, it just implies you have already let go. if you are ready to let go then just let it go, let me go. why do i have to be the one to make that decision. to me, i feel that you've already given that up. and the only reason why you are still around is because you can't let me go, you want me to do it. well, you know what. if i was the one to hurt you, hurt you so bad shouldn't you be the one to let me go? shouldn't you shun me out of your life because i did you so dirty, hurt you so bad, was the bad one? why do i have to make that decision?

i love you so much, but i am getting tired of your sense. maybe one day i will wake up and realize i don't need this from you. don't even say you don't even know yourself, you do. you always have. don't let me be the one to sway you from yourself. your view on love isn't as open as you think it is. i'm changing to be the woman you want me to be. i hope you see that. i'm your little mold. we'll see how far this goes, because you have pretty much asked for just that.